Its been a while since I blogged. When I looked to my left, I was shocked to see that March was the last time something was written and published. In this season I've taken some time away to focus on character development through reading, engaging in mentorship relationships and pulling back to refocus on the next phase of life.
I've been planning, brainstorming, planning again.lol But in the midst of that, I felt like the Lord was calling me to come sit at his feet and rest. He was calling me back to the days where I had nothing better to do than sit in his presence. And those days were immensely fulfilling.
The truth is that there are so many things vying for our attention, 'Good things', 'bad' things. Being an adult, is comprised of numerous little and big responsibilities. Between bills, grocery shopping, doctors appointments, one can begin to wonder where time is venturing to. Are we living or surviving?
This summer indeed has been unique. In some ways I felt like I have been surviving. I found myself excited for the newness that was before me. Yet, this newness was not and is not happening as quickly as I initially gauged. I began to feel low until I eventually realized that I'm in a season of warfare and waiting.
I know I'm not alone out there. There are many of us that have dreams. Maybe its a business, maybe its self improvement, maybe its to get back to school. Either way, we have things that we know God has called us to do or things we simply desire. But sometimes the Lord has us in a season of waiting so we can learn again the joy of sitting at his feet and trusting him completely. The warfare isn't about whether we arrive to our destination but rather how we enter it. Sometimes he has us in a season of waiting because he's developing character and perseverance.
When it was time for the Israelites to exit Egypt, they not only brought out the spoil of their enemies, they brought out the spoil of their attitude, which wasn't of much value. They did not know how to be free and they did not know how to stop complaining. How many times does the Lord want to usher a new season into our lives but he allows us to remain in the wilderness so that we can learn how to respect him and trust him to handle our lives without us knowing the details? The thing is that it isn't punishment, he just wouldn't be a good parent if he gave us something we could not handle. The land he wanted to bring them into required total dependence on Him and Him alone. Yet there was a refusal to fully trust God's leadership.
I find myself in this warfare. This is the same warfare that has been happening since the garden. Will we trust that God is exactly who he says he is? Will we trust that he is for our good? Jesus passed this test. He trusted that God, our father, was for his good and that the wilderness would not destroy him but rather unveil the character that was waiting to be revealed through him, to the glory of God. Jesus knew that the wilderness was an incubator for development and an opportunity to choose to trust the Lord.
Either way, whatever you find yourself waiting for, I encourage you to embrace the season that you are in and submit yourself to the working of the Holy Spirit. Don't fight it or else you may find yourself cursing that very thing that our God wants to use to bless you. Below is a song that has been ministering to me in this season. I hope it ministers to you too.